We Roll Hoods Up.

Back before boys matter,
And distance was an issue.
Back when money popped up whenever we needed it,
And quitting your job to go on a roadtrip was always an option.
When it was okay to skip the important nights
To make new memories that only we could share.
Back when the car rides were better than the destination,
But the destination was unbelievable.
When we could spend all of our money on other people,
But still have enough to be okay.
Back when the dessert and the harbor were all we needed.
Before those days that we got so tense
We didn't know what to do with each other.
Those times that sleepovers lasted weeks,
And plans were made 20 minutes before the event.
Back before consequences became realities.
No one can top what we've shared,
No matter how hard they try.
Simply because we're DDXC,
Like no other.
Friends are forever,
They're not meant to weather.

Best Friends For Never.

A while back when things in my life were completely different, someone important to me made me a mixtape and attached the following letter:

Ashley -

No matter what you'll always be my best friend and no one could change that. We may have our differences, but that doesn't make me love you any less or any more. I love you because I love you because I love you, the end.

#1 Because you can stand under my umbrella.
#2 Because you're unlike any other.
#3 Because you're my great escape.
#4 Because I wish that I could make you happy.
#5 Because I know it's not much.
#6 Because I must be doing something right.
#7 Is to the nights we felt alive.
#8 Because I will look after you.
#9 Because I hope you're home, finding sleep.
#10 Because you're everything I once had.
#11 Because it's always better when we're together.
#12 Because you're my better half.
#13 Because I wanna give you back what you gave.
#14 Because you don't know you're beautiful.
#15 Because I wish only the best for you.
#16 Because after all, you're my wonderwall.
#17 Because the worst is over.
#18 Because one day, you'll look back and see.
#19 Because things will be okay.

<3always.

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On that note, isn't it crazy how the people you think will always be in your life, that you plan your future with and around, that you spend every possible moment with, and that you have the craziest moments with can disappear so quickly? Wow.

Here's to 2010, hope everyone has the most memorable year yet.

RIP JMA 1.1.10

The Jar

A Professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.


So the Professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The Professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."



The Professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the space between the grains of sand. "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.


The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else -the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. "Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."


One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The Professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

I get the worst

anxiety over the smallest things. There needs to be a way to fix it. Thoughts?

I never use this blog anymore, yet all I have to say is that

I want out.

One day.

I would like to figure out why I do this to myself.

Words.

I have a lot to say.